2026 SEP 27
Updated: Sep 30
I am grateful that I am alive today, still doing the things I love. Some days I forget how lucky I am to wake up and do what I love, and this is just the greatest thing. I would wake up, play instruments, listen to music, and play more instruments. Then I would sit down and think about the pain that I have to go through, like life in general can always feel painful in a lot of ways that I think we as human beings can all relate to. But I also am ready for that.
I have been facing death recently since my grandma passed away, and it reminds me that our time here on earth is limited, in this world we do have to learn to treasure our energy and keep creating, for others, or just to watch our friends and the next generation get better, and these I think could be the best things that would happen to us. Recently I have been feeling more emotional than usual. Sometimes days could turn into nights in the blink of an eye because I am just so caught up with work. Some days I feel creative and I would spend the whole day making a track. Some days I just feel tired because I have been going to the gym every day. Some days I just wanna go home and be with my mom since she could only be very sad and lonely at times since we live together, but at the same time I need a lot of alone time in the studio to basically finish everything that a label has to run all by myself. I also started making and shipping jewellery, and I think I am too good at it, that I think I could finish everything by myself — like from manufacturing to assembling, to packaging and shipping, it is basically all done by myself. Anyways, I am not complaining since I am really grateful that you guys love and buy my jewellery that I have been preparing for half a year since I was introduced to 3D software (thanks Ram2). I have also been drawing with friends, and it makes me wanna dive into drawing handbags and making bags, etc.
I appreciate you all for reading, and I hope this message finds you well. Be loved, friends.
我很感激今日我還活住，仍然做緊我熱愛嘅嘢。有啲日子我會唔記得，我曾經幾咁渴望一擘大眼就可以一直做自己鍾意嘅事，而呢樣正正就係我做緊最正嘅事。我會起身，彈樂器，聽音樂，再彈多啲樂器。然後我開始諗我接下落嚟要經歷嘅痛苦，因為我覺得，總括嚟講，生活喺好多方面都總係令人痛苦嘅，我諗作為人類，我哋都能夠感同身受。但係我都真係準備好迎接呢個挑戰。
最近我面對死亡，因為我嫲嫲走咗，我覺得喺呢個世界上，我哋真係要學識珍惜自己嘅精力，繼續創作，為其他人，或者為咗睇住我哋嘅朋友同下一代變好，我諗呢啲可能係發生喺我哋身上最好嘅事。最近我比平時更加情緒化，有時日頭一眨眼就變咗夜晚，因為我太沉迷喺工作度。有啲日子我好有創造力，我會花成日做一首曲；有啲日子我淨係覺得好攰，因為我日日都去健身室；有啲日子我淨係想返屋企陪我媽，因為我哋住埋一齊，佢有時會非常傷心同孤單。但係同一時間，我需要喺錄音室度有好多獨處嘅時間，基本上要自己一個人完成一個廠牌需要運轉嘅所有嘢，而且我都開始製作同寄送珠寶，我覺得我太擅長呢樣嘢，以至於我覺得我可以自己一個人完成所有嘢，比如由製造到組裝，再到包裝同發貨，基本上都係我自己一個人做。總之我唔係喺度抱怨，因為我真係好感激你哋鍾意同買我一直在準備嘅珠寶，自從我接觸3D軟件以嚟，我已經準備咗半年（多謝ram2）。而且因為我同朋友一齊畫畫，令我想深入去畫手袋同整袋等等。
多謝大家閱讀，希望呢條訊息送到你哋手上時一切都好。被愛吧，朋友們。
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